Destinations

"I've been persecuted but not forsaken. Cast down but not destroyed. I have something this world can't take. Away from me" - VaShawn Mitchell Since I bought this CD it has been a source of encouragement and a true blessing. It's rare for me to find gospel artist who's music has a message that expands past God's gone bless you real good or you coming out of that situation right now. Don't get me wrong I'm not against those types of songs. But we as Christians have got to learn how to endure. Sometimes we get so caught up in God take me out we forget to pray God take me through. What kind of Christian would you be if you never went through something? You have to be tried in the fire to come out gold. This walk is not easy. Sometimes I get weak and just lay in defeat. I stand on sorrow and self pity instead of the word of God. Then I think about God's joy. It is my strength it is my smile it is my light in the dark it's my resting place. Every...

"Experience is the best teacher for it never leaves a child behind." - Shan How to be a lady. It's such a strange statement. A cliche with a thousand different meanings but only one truth. This is my goal for the year. To learn how to be a lady. The seed of a lady came from a man but can only be duplicated by a woman can. There is so much for me to explore. I'm so far beyond the basic physical and mental traits. Always carry lip gloss and earrings check. Let your presence shout while your voice is barely above a whisper check. Respect yourself in all you do check. But what about the spiritual virtues? I love sitting in a room with older women (about 40+) talking about what my little 21 year old self calls problems. They always laugh at me not in a mean way but in an I remember when way. The laughter to me is refreshing. It helps eat up the pain in my speech and fills my heart with joy. I cherish these moments. They don't happen much nowadays. Most older grown wome...

Deep calls unto deep at the noise of your waterfalls - Psalm 42:7a The beginning is not the start and the end is not the finish. I guess that means I'm caught up in the middle. I'm laying everything out in this one blog. To the person who this makes complete and total sense to I love you far more than you think I do. I wish I knew how to forgive you. How to love you past the unlimited stabs in my back and heart. How to look you in your eyes to say I need you even though you may not need me back. It's hard to look at you. To imagine an us in total peace. It's not normal. Right now I'm counting on God to heal me. I believe he made me to love. But right now I can't because I'm not free. My heart is in a complex condition. But God is breaking me into pieces. Attempting to shatter my past and present so he can build this amazing future. Do I trust him? What if he never puts me back together? What if this hurts more than I can take? What if I can't be here be...

"I'm not saying its all holy. This music reflects my walk. I'm a saint with a past who by the grace of God has a future." - HyQuality Whew! I haven't done one of these in a while. I use to write these in my unsaved days. Always about everybody but the Creator. Not this time. This one is dedicated to the love of my life. The man who keeps me who comforts me who wipes every tear from my eyes. The man who protects me day and night who waited for me to come home who is not a ashamed of me even when I'm ashamed of myself. The man who is King of all Kings the source of my resources. Jesus Christ. Redemption: Tape 1 Side A Chasing Pavements - Adele I was having the time of my life. I figured cause I wasn't drinking smoking or having sex I was surely going to heaven. I had sins of my own but nobody is perfect. In my mind a curse word here and there was okay and a few when you get man was natural. Somebody even told me they cursed in the Bible and who can argue wit...