Skip to main content

Push Play

"For God did not give us a spirit of fear but of power love and a sound mind." - 2 Timothy 1:7
"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18


I get a lot of "advice" about love and my relationship. Some good some bad and some that doesn't deserve my attention. Positivity helps me filter through what I need to keep and what I need to throw away. Sometimes I choose what agrees with my feelings over the wisdom that God is pouring out. I'm not perfect. That doesn't take away from my responsibility its simply a statement of truth. I choose to be who He called me to be because who my flesh desires to be will kill me. With that being said here we go.

The Way You Love Me- Anthony Evans
I try my best not to get set in my ways. I know that my ways are not His ways and therefore they are null and void. They shouldn't have any power over who I am and where I go. My destiny and identity are in the hand of Christ. "You love me so much that you let me you let me fall knowing that I would loose it all and hear your call. You loved me so much that you chased me." I went down a lot of dead end roads. Made some lefts when I heard God saying take a right. Made a u-turn because fear was blocking my faith from seeing the end. Yet God is so amazing and so faithful. All of my roads of pain sorrow fear and disobedience led me to Christ in the end. His love never leaves my side.

I Shall Live And Not Die - Darlene McCoy
I have heard this song so many times but it wasn't until I walked away from the accident that I really heard what the song way saying. It was 6am when they finally said I could go home. I didn't understand how death came to take me and I was still alive. The second I stepped in the car all I heard on the radio was "I will fear no alarm and escape this unharmed because I stand here knowing that I'm never alone".  After that there were no more doubts. I was blessed with victory because He declared life and canceled out death. Thank God for angels.

Moving Forward - Israel Houghton
I've made a lost of mistakes in this new season. Some I never thought I would make again and others I just didn't exercise self control when doing. I've abused the grace of God while praying for mercy and expected perverted seeds to produce a pure harvest. Yet there is always room for redemption and I love him for that alone. "Such a freedom I have found in you. You're the healer who makes all things new." Shame and guilt use to keep me so far away from Christ. I was so scared to cry out for forgiveness letting the enemy strip away the power of repentance and the freedom of confession. Many times it wasn't just sin that held me back but those voices in my head that said God was tired of forgiving me. They lied. "I'm not going back I'm moving ahead here to declare to You my past is over in You all things are made new surrendered my life to Christ I'm moving, moving forward". 


Comfort Zone - Marvin Sapp 
With each new season comes new troubles. With each new dream comes new fears. God requires more with each level of maturity. As we move from milk drinkers to meat eaters we have to give more fight harder and pray longer. I have a few walls that are blocking me from stepping into all that He has for me. "I'm coming out of my comfort zone. Some of the places in my life that's comfortable. God is challenging me to trust and believe. For to go where I've not gone I must do what I've not done." It's a bit discouraging to know I'm not done with this yet. But I keep my faith on high. Because with each step I'm that much closer to being free. And as the Word says :who the Son sets free is free indeed. 


Part Of The List- Ne Yo
Ahhh my love life. Its simply m-azing. Its growing daily. Ive always had this mentality that you should never let anyone know everything about you. I was told its wise to keep something for yourself. But for him I just can't do it. He has poured into me, pushed me into better places, and encouraged me along the way. I respect him and his position in my life. There is so much that I love about him; so much more that I love about us. "Shape of your eyes and your nose. the way stare as if you see right through to my soul....our quiet time your beautiful there all part of the list."Its such a blessing to add more positive traits than negative ones. Anytime the good out weighs the bad its worth fighting for. Love hasn't always come easy for me but with him I know its worth it. 




Ideas like love, like God, these things sometimes feel more disconnected and ethereal, like that’s the ghostly realm. But what if that’s wrong, and God and love is actually what is most real, and we are more like ghosts walking upon the earth, hoping to become more real?”- Micheal Gungor <<< Isn't is amazing how a small change in our minds can shift our reality. God can go from a make believe hero to a fact that holds your life together when things start falling apart. My problems are not as real as my God. His love is more real than my pain.  

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Next Stop: Liberty

So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. - John 8:36 "It is the hurt that breaks me it’s the pain that pulls me to my knees and the tears they’ve changed me til what I couldn’t see Becomes so clear to me This is the way The way that you love me" - Anthony Evans Where do I begin? Its been a long 2 months. I went through every emotion there is. I cried more than I slept and prayed more than I breathed. I was isolated from every single comfort zone I faithfully rested my head upon. All I had was a mouth to pray and hands to praise. It was just me and God. And though I know He would never leave nor forsake me I had never felt so alone. I felt abandoned and cut off. The dreams I had grown so accustomed to were no where to be found. The very gift through which all my answered prayer came was out of service. I felt like my prayer was in vain. I started to focus my mind on other things. I begin to rely on people back home to tell me what God was saying. I patiently...

Challenge Accepted: My Scars

A couple days ago a fellow blogger and sister of mine issued a challenge. The challenge was to write a blog on why I show my scars. Once I read the challenge I knew I had to participate. Sharing my journey through writing has been a source of healing and freedom not just for me but for those who read the blog. Ever since I started this blog I have had the support of Rhachelle and I am truly grateful for that. When I bought my first pink my scars tee from her RN brand t-shirt collection I promised myself I wouldn't put it on until I was ready to speak freely about everything I had been through. Needless to say the shirt is in heavy rotation and I can no longer be silent about how Christ rescued me. I hope that you all enjoy this post and decide to take the challenge as well. Check out rhachellenicol.com for more information on the challenge and rnbranddesign.bigcartel.com for the my scars t-shirts and her other ministry tees.  I show my scars because I was never good at putting o...

He Gave

And he gave me hands. Hands to write the vision and make it plain. Hands to wipe every tear as He counted the blessings they would bring. He gave me feet. Feet to walk in the path he set before me. To run this race and endure all that comes my way. To jump over and walk through the valley of the shadow of death. He gave me a mouth. To shout the praises of a living king. To worship the glory of the holy lamb. To move the mountains to new places. To conquer the spirit of silence. He gave me life. Became who I am so I could be who he is. Laid down so I could stand firm. Cried out so I could dream big. Stepped down so I could be set free. Broke chains so I could serve him. Passed down the letter and canceled it through grace. He gave me love. Love to overcome breakthrough. To nurture bring life and survive. To rebuke loneliness inspire and grow. My King My Saviour My Redeemer who is patient and kind. Keeps no records of my wrongs wont delight in my evil ways protects trusts and...