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Wishful Thinking

"I must have been asleep making decisions. I woke up feeling different. It wasn't what I was asking for said we got potential of forever" - Tynisha Keli

This chick is amazing. Such a dope artist. You guys should follow her @tynishakeli but be warned she ain't no lil girl and she (and her fans) will let you have it. lol.

But anyways this lyric caught my mind. Sometimes i wonder did I fall asleep in the most beautiful dream and wake up to live out a nightmare. Its crazy. Smiles are getting harder to come by now a days. But daily I am learning to rejoice in my very first love *God* Its taking some time. But i know i will get back there one day. Right now im enjoying the journey back. Learning what I did wrong to slide all the way back down. This time I promise myself that I wont be coming back down.

I hope I can keep this one promise to myself. Cause I have truly broke a ton of them. I look back on the journey of my heart and realize just how far I haven't even come. SOOOO many things are just the same way. New faces and new feelings but same situations. Makes me wonder if i haven't learned what I was suppose to cause Im still here or if Im suppose to be here after all.

I will surely go for the latter. LOL. I truly love and enjoy my life. But I refuse to be satisfied. I haven't made it to the top of having it all yet. But ill get there on my own time. Comfort will make you so unhappy sometimes. I only got one mind and one heart. Cant split it between two many people.

If i could make all of em happy i know i would. but thats not gone happen. all of that is just wishful thinking. i had fun while my eyes were closed. but now that they open i have to accept and move on with my life.

"And somebody always getting offended. But I promise all I did was breathe
Baby chill for a minute. Ain't no sense in you trippin Cause I'm tired of being on the ground. Ill help you up though so we can go higher. Turn the thoughts down and turn the listening up." - Type.Classy <3

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