Destinations

[Verse 1] You're everything i thought you never were and nothing like i thought you could have been. but still you live inside of me. so tell me how is that. you're the only one i wish i could forget. the only one id love to not forgive. and though you break my heart you're the only one. and though there are times when i hate you cause i cant erase the times that you heart me and put tears on my face. and even now while i hate you it pains me to say i know ill be there at the end of the day. [Chorus] i don't want to be with out you babe i don't want a broken heart. don't want to take a breath without you baby i don't want to play that part i know that i love you but let me just say i don't want to love you in no kind of way no no i don't want a broken heart and i don't want to play the broken hearted girl these two parts of the song describe my exact situation. its everything I'm going through right now. and bey, i couldn't say said it b...

"Misery loves company by now you should know people always have advice about being together when their all alone" - Dru Hill For anybody that really knows me, this is one of my absolute favorite lyrics from a song. I quote it alllllll the time. Its so very true. A lot of times we ask people for advice when they're not in a suitable situation to give advice. How can a single individual give me advice about making my relationship work when they aint got no man. AND yes i said aint got no. but seriously thats really crazy. a lot of times i thing back on the advice i have taken from people. many times it wasnt good advice. it was just something i wanted to hear. it was like my so called friends were just spoon feeding my ego and intellect. nobody wanted to say baby girl you wrong or thats not the right mindset to have you have to look at it another way. Now when i look to people for advice i pray before hand. I pray that my heart and mind are open to accept that which is righ...

"But baby it doesn't have to be. Like the way that im at a tragedy. Its beautiful and its blue. And its pitiful and its through. its the other half of me."- Rihanna How are you capable of telling me what I can handle? I know me better than anybody on this Earth. The only person who knows me better than myself is my GOD!! I am a very strong woman to be the age that I am. I can handle anything that I put my mind to and my energy too. All i need is too hands to fold and a mouth to speak. Those are my only weapons in battle. Love was such a beautiful part of me. Kept me in such high hopes and satisfaction. i loved it all. Until my definition changed. and i filled it with you. thinking the analogy was the same cause you had some of the original contents too. and i was wrong. it hurts to admit that cause i was the last to see that. the copy never plays out as well. it looks so good to my eyes but in my heart it felt so wrong and i stayed by it. too caught up in being wrong to a...

So for those of you that follow ms. teyana taylor (@teyanataylor) on ustream you know she does a show called late nights with dr. t. during the shower she pics random topics to discuss and ask her viewers to send emails with questions only pertaining to the topic. tonights topic was tell him the truth. so im listening to all the crazy questions people are putting out. laughing and joking at the crazy stuff she says. like no ma'am no ham no turkey. and its new its fresh its in its purple. lol. but on to the next lol anyways so a viewer decided to send a question in that hit me close to home. her question was too make a long story short her ex best friend currently dates her ex boyfriend, what should she do. so teyana goes well you know they both wrong. tell him and her to keep the change cause they dead wrong. so it hit me kind of personal. now i currently date my ex best friends ex boyfriend. before all of this came along i always felt like this was wrong. but you cant help who you...

Caught up in the resurrection of second guessing keeps me up all night. Wondering if this was meant to be if it could be a forever me and you. Not sure what our future holds but im staying right here. Im not a fan of change so I always stand still. Waiting for something to happen. I guess thats how i feel so hard so fast so quick cause my feet were to stubborn to move. So you managed to steal my heart like a thief in the night i wasnt expecting you. The truth hurts somethings but what im about to say could flip your world. The past is catching up quickly i have no time too loose. What if he could come back and take this all away. What if i would run off and leave your heart in pieces? What if it didnt work and I came back to you? Could you accept me and all the pain I put you through. These are questions thoughts emotions that keep me up all night. The mind is a dangerous place to dwell. Hold on to the dreams in your heart cause Ill break you. So thats whats really on my mind. i...