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6:22 AM

Caught up in the resurrection of second guessing keeps me up all night.
Wondering if this was meant to be if it could be a forever me and you.
Not sure what our future holds but im staying right here.
Im not a fan of change so I always stand still. Waiting for something to happen.
I guess thats how i feel so hard so fast so quick cause my feet were to stubborn to move.
So you managed to steal my heart like a thief in the night i wasnt expecting you.
The truth hurts somethings but what im about to say could flip your world.
The past is catching up quickly i have no time too loose.
What if he could come back and take this all away.
What if i would run off and leave your heart in pieces?
What if it didnt work and I came back to you?
Could you accept me and all the pain I put you through.
These are questions thoughts emotions that keep me up all night.
The mind is a dangerous place to dwell.
Hold on to the dreams in your heart cause Ill break you.

So thats whats really on my mind. its been keeping me up for a month or so. just thinking. wondering. asking praying. and now im writing. i cant say this will help me sleep. but i can say i can close my eyes now. dreams are for people who grow up real slow. i pumped some steroids in my life. experiences have knocked me down. But God picked me up.

Stupid In Love - Rihanna "tryna make this work. but you act like a jerk. silly of me to keep holding on. but the dunce cap is off. you dont know what youve lost. and you wont realize until im gone. that i was the one which one of us is really dumb"

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