Destinations

"The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you'll see their flaws. That's just the way it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don't last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they're out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness' sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it's seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship." - Unknown And on my way back I decided I would take the long way home and speak my heart. I regret to inform you that speech therapy is over. This is nothing but a confession. - Hyquality For the first time in a long time I sat still. Shook, quiet, and meek wondering if opening my mouth was wisdom or being a fool. It wasn'...

"One thing I've learned: Don't let your mistakes take you out of the presence of God nor allow people's opinion of you when you make that mistake change the way you see yourself! Bc baby we all got something we've done & some still doing it, but His Grace."- Jaz Would you believe it wasn't my intention to be here typing this all out. I honestly let this blog go. In a lot of ways I gave up on writing with out giving up on it. Stuff that was suppose to be on this blog ended up being condescended to late night thoughts on Facebook and hidden notes on my iPhone. Its hilariously humbling that it took a post on Instagram for me to come back and say something. But I'm here and I have so much to share. I just pray you all are still listening. There is something about mistakes. Missing the mark over and over again until you create a cycle of false humility & sin. But it looks so good and it feels so right. God, I'm so sorry. Truth be told no...

A couple days ago a fellow blogger and sister of mine issued a challenge. The challenge was to write a blog on why I show my scars. Once I read the challenge I knew I had to participate. Sharing my journey through writing has been a source of healing and freedom not just for me but for those who read the blog. Ever since I started this blog I have had the support of Rhachelle and I am truly grateful for that. When I bought my first pink my scars tee from her RN brand t-shirt collection I promised myself I wouldn't put it on until I was ready to speak freely about everything I had been through. Needless to say the shirt is in heavy rotation and I can no longer be silent about how Christ rescued me. I hope that you all enjoy this post and decide to take the challenge as well. Check out rhachellenicol.com for more information on the challenge and rnbranddesign.bigcartel.com for the my scars t-shirts and her other ministry tees.  I show my scars because I was never good at putting o...

This was not easy. It took a lot of conversation debating and writing. But it's the truth. It's everything people want to know but can't ask. Or simply don't know how to. It's the black & white version of my colorful story. This is my freedom my healing my peace. Yes it's my place of worship. Now to the poetry. Enjoy!  Almost   What happens when you want to make love?  Speak all of your feelings into existence. Build a solid foundation perfect storms can't break. Endure the coldest winter just to create heat. Make love like midnight dedications. It's just me and the radio. Creation needs two people and I can't make you love me. When, could never compare to back then, that time we almost made love. Yes I miss almost.  Inside Me   It's funny.  The things that make you insecure. The stuff you read as you scroll through.  The garbage you examine like it's brand new.  The wishes you take back hoping it's a full moon.  It's hard believi...

To fall flat on your face is to release who you use to be. To get back up is to become who you are. - HyQuality Between Romans 8: 28 and Galatians 6: 7 I have been building my understanding of everything that has happened. The people that have left. The relationships that have failed. The words I wish I had kept to myself. I have released the claims they had on my identity, demoting them to tools in the Potter's hands. He has kept me because I asked and yield. The blessing is not in a thing. But in the language attached to my name. Either He will reign forever or it will rain forever but I will not put my faith in both. I thank God for the place I am in. The breaking means more room for Him. A part of rebuilding is realizing that I lacked nothing from the beginning. Greater is He that is in me and in Him is all I need. This is not to starting over. This is to making better. Construction Zones There are two things the calm signifies. One is the peace of a new morning the othe...

"Go find your place of worship. Look into your pain and find your praise. Every low place in your life prepared you for your high place. And every tear you cried was water for the garden of your victory. And even though your in the valley victory comes through your adversity." - Marvin Sapp : Place of Worship Not advertising has its rewards. But also consequences. I feel like no matter the decision pain is a part of the process. Like at some point somebody was going to make me stare long and hard in the mirror. The confidence it takes to declare something you hardly desire to admit skipped over me until recently. I spent months praying for the lesson. Saying lord teach me. But I was not prepared for an experience. He is faithful to answer on the spot. So quick sometimes you're like whoa is this Him or me. Nevertheless He answered. Taking me back around to familiar places and situations. Digging up all the dirt I had so carefully catered to. Making sure it wasn't ove...

That moment when you haven't prayed in so long.  Hunger supersedes your flesh and lies in the belly of your soul.  Hanging your head low you say grace hoping this meal will heal you.  Lord we ask that you clean this food and make it nourishment for our bodies.  Bless the hands that prepared it and the bodies that receive it.  In Jesus name.  Some where between amen and open eyes your hunger is fulfilled.  Suddenly you realize those hunger pains were coming from your soul. The journey I have been on this year has been like no other.  I have fought for my life and lost it in the end.  I have stayed longer than I should have.  Left before my appointed time.  Ran to reach destinations I didn't desire to be.  Walked in circles avoiding the best each season could offer.  Still God is faithful.  The very words He spoke over my life are coming to pass daily.  His promises have not and will not fail me....