Destinations

What a rough night it has been. Too much pain being thrown around and not enough love. One of the things I absolutley love about my personal salvation is he hears me even when he doesn't speak and I always recieve just what I need to make it through. What an awesome God. I will praise His Holy name for the rest of my life before I open up my mouth to complain. He has done more than I deserve and more than I dare ask or imagine. His very nature is a provider. He is perfect peace and He is victory. See I learned how to praise not too long ago in spirit and truth. Now I refuse to remain in anything I don't have to and the stuff I have to be in I will be victorious through the blood shed and poured over my life daily. I will not be a victim. I may fall but I will get up. I am a queen. I will reside in the house of the living Lord at all times. Okay I had to get that out my system. I surely came to talk about something else but I couldn't. The lord called me to be a worshipper n

"ain't that i don't love you no more. i'm just exhausted. and i'm tired of going there with you. i'm just exhausted. don't tell me that you don't feel it too." - Tyra B. so when did we get here? explain to me how total bliss can come and be destroyed in a matter of seconds. you refuse to see the wrong and i just simply cant see the right. we stay in the same boat but you always seem to forget i can see you. this attack is coming from a the same person its always coming from. the enemy is always up to something. and some how he gets the best of us from time to time. its really sad. because we so educated but something happens and we get to ignorant. im kind of tired of the same old same old. the apologies coming like they suppose to mean something. like they serve a purpose. cause in my mind they really don't. but i wont let that stop me from forgiving you. thats for purely personal reasons. i need my own forgiveness. so if i have to give me you

"I must have been asleep making decisions. I woke up feeling different. It wasn't what I was asking for said we got potential of forever" - Tynisha Keli This chick is amazing. Such a dope artist. You guys should follow her @tynishakeli but be warned she ain't no lil girl and she (and her fans) will let you have it. lol. But anyways this lyric caught my mind. Sometimes i wonder did I fall asleep in the most beautiful dream and wake up to live out a nightmare. Its crazy. Smiles are getting harder to come by now a days. But daily I am learning to rejoice in my very first love *God* Its taking some time. But i know i will get back there one day. Right now im enjoying the journey back. Learning what I did wrong to slide all the way back down. This time I promise myself that I wont be coming back down. I hope I can keep this one promise to myself. Cause I have truly broke a ton of them. I look back on the journey of my heart and realize just how far I haven't even come

"The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a Heaven of a Hell or a Hell of a Heaven." - John Milton So im thinking about everything. consistently constantly wondering what if this or what if that. its driving me crazy but it never stops. i can make something so simple and loving so horrible and scary by getting my mind started. it can go from awww today he said i was sweet to i wonder why he said that to maybe he trying to make up for our fight last night to he just trying to get back on my good side and etc. just that quick i made something so great not that great. my mind has been on fire. i had a crazy dream. a mentor of mine from high school saw me at the mall. i ran over to her and we talked. she wasnt as excited as i was about it. but i didnt notice none of this in my dream. so the min conversation ended cause my father came over and told me wear to meet him at when i get done. so i was like is your number the same. and she was like no. and i was like mine isnt