Destinations

There are conversations going on in my heart that keep me at the edge of grace.  These are not perfect conversations but interpretations of the heartbeats that keep me alive.  These conversations are also incomplete. Beyond the walls of my heart they are empty and lifeless.  With no meaning outside of emotion, will you lift your glass as I toast ... To the boys I once loved, thank you for not having the courage to love me back.  Of all the things I could regret, it will never be my experience will you.  You taught me how to chase after Him and dive into His relentless love. Finally the scars on my heart are free to reflect His beauty.  To the guys I once liked, you helped me figure out what life is all about and why death is so easily feared.  It is the unexpected last breath that we are afraid of much like the unexpected end we shared.  I absolutely hated to watch you walk away but I'm grateful on my worst days you didn't stay.   It was never about you