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what an interesting day it has been. So much in me has so much to say but i cant even find the words. nothing is going like i planned. it always seems like we on two opposites sides of the map when in reality we not that far from each other. i really need to get a few things together. i know things could be so much better than what they are right now. we just missing the productivity.

"just one of them days a girl goes through when im angry inside i dont want to take it out on you" - Monica

Let me start off by saying she is my all time favorite artist. I love everything she sings. She could sing a song about a zebra print wallet and it would be in my most played playlist in my itunes before the day is over. lol.

But the song is exactly how im feeling right now. Its just one of them days for me. Im not the type to take my anger out on no one. So im keeping to myself for the moment. Everybody keeps wondering why Im so quiet. Im like no reason just dont have much to say today. I dont wake up every day with a million words to speak running through my head. But I do wake up with a thousands thoughts in my head to feel throughout the day. I guess im complex like that.

I really wish I could be more verbal with words than I am. It always hard to express what you feel via words. When you get to explaining how you feel you get caught up in descriptions that you forget to feel. I dont want to be like that. Causes too much confusion.

So i think Im done for the day. Maybe tomorrow ill have some poetry to post. i miss writing :(

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